anxious :(

i have no idea.. im lost in my own world... come on!!! wake up! big challenges waiting for you.. i really miss Masjidil Haram and Masjidil Nabawi... i miss the peacefulness that i got there. i miss that ice cream beside the hotel.. im really anxious... i dont know why.. i didnt have any single idea why am i behaving like this.. im not in the reality world... im hanging in my own world dont know which way to go... Ya Allah help me! i dont feel good :( Ya Allah im not strong, i admit im not strong, Ya Allah please help me.. AMEEN

Ya Allah Help Me :(

plz bare that in mind

Insyaallah i want to be like this.. Ya Allah help me ;(

Alhamdulillah another reminder :) just like what ustz kamal said

Ya Allah I Trust You With The Whole of My Heart.. Ya Allah dont let anyone take  Your place as no 1in my heart I beg You ;(

help me Ya Allah I Want to change

i dont need a guy who bring me further than Allah i just need  one who always remind me of Allah which is missing nowadays

HAVE FAITH IN ALLAH :D

Alhamdulillah He gave me challenges in life because He loves me Insyallah. Ya Rab I beg You for the hidayah

DONT NEVER GIVE UP!

today

21st March 2012 the ending of everything.. the last time i could able to meet everyone from my class.. the nervous feeling came and attack my nerves.. yeah what i did was never fail to tell out the prayers and tawakkal.. I prayed in Masjidil Haram by saying Ya Allah please give me the best result. If i did well all praises goes to You, If I didnt i knew i did wrong somewhere.. well actually yesterday was a bad day... it feels the same as the day b4 the SPM starts.. i didnt stop crying even today morning.. But I know Allah is always with me all the time and Hears my prayer.. so i went to school and met my friends.. sorry im sooo speechless i talk nonsense in school just now.. when the gate was open we let them in first after some time we went in.. saw vic yeahhh she is the one that i'll go to if i have problems in my studies and i trust her that i complaint everything about studies to her.. so i went for the result with her *holding hands like a new couple*  i was very nervous that i even cried b4 receiving my results.. Pn Lee was there calming me down she said that we did the best so this is it... so yeahh vic took her result first and yeahh she got a really good result.. then my turn at first i was upset.. but at home i realise my prayer at Masjidil Haram.. I shouldnt be upset i should be grateful with what i got. Astaghfirullahalazim i just forgot about my prayer.. Ya Allah All Praises goes to You. I dont deserve to receive any praises from another servant because All Praises goes to You The Almighty. So i should say Alhamdulillah Thank You Allah. I believe that this is the best result for me. And I believe that this is a new platform for me to work harder in university and beat my brother as he always got dean's list... and guess what he only got 1 or 2 A's in SPM but he maintained his dean's list for a few sem.. well this tell me something.. we can change. SPM is not going to be the end of the world.. there are lots more challenges waiting and hunting for us in college/ university.. and actually not all people who succeeds with flying colours in SPM did well in university and succeed in their life.. its the matter of us adjusting ourselves and our skills :D so lets start a new life. let bygones be bygones.. we are incapable of changing the past but we are able to change the future.. take it a positive way for us to change our life and our style. yeahh! university! i really hope of doing better there (:

sooo i guess im sooo good in stalking people.. actually im not satisfied coz i only managed two snap a few pics of masjidil aqsa.. so wat i just did was stalking people that go the same trip with me fb account *ididntaddthem

so it was raining but the coldness :S the upper pic you can actually find me without the glasses :D heheh it is at the dome of the rock, below the hanging stone u know israk mikraj.. so yes this is down there.. 

when my heart goes so empty

finding and keep finding.. never lose hope but keep on finding my way... then i felt like i wanna stop studying.. huh how am i going to tell tis to my mum? coz what i wanna do now is learn more about islam... because i felt happy when i am studying about my religion and i can feel the peaceness when i do so.. i did tell her that i feel like taking usuluddin.. she said its better for me to look out for other subjects that provide me a large field of occupation + i dont take extra agama subject in spm.. huh -.- Insyaallah i believe that Allah has a better plan for me..

so keep on praying (:

bare that in mind please Nur Rosyiidah

my sins are like the sand at the beach but Allah forgiveness are like the whole  earth  and sky :D

satisfy Allah first then only we think about the others?

when sometimes i had no one to talk to i'll go to Him and tell what am i feeling.. im not satisfy that i only remember Him when i am in trouble.. i wish to change that part ;(

Allah wouldnt give you a challenge unless you are ready to go through it (:

Ya Allah I wish i could stay at your house and keep praying that you will forgive my sins and until i really can go through all the challenges in this worldd ;( Ya Allah i need you for everything.. i admit my weakness

empty

i dont know why.. my heart feel something is missing... missing missing missing.. i feel so empty. my heart misses something. i miss going for prayer at Masjidil Haram.. I heart Masjid Nabawi.. i think i left my heart there.. i miss hearing the azan.. i miss the surah they read while praying. i miss reading Quran for a long period as i usually doesnt do that.. i miss the peaceness that i found there and i left my heart there... Ya Allah dont make that as the last visit. Please Ya Allah I wanna go there again..

Past 2 weeks...

so this is my first experience went faaar away hahah... well it takes aroung 9-10 hours of flight including the transit... so i went to jordan first.. so yeahh jordannn

so i slept at the dead sea spa hotel the first night after my tour went to Madaba, Nebo and the shopping part.. but the best part was the hotel. it was cold as you know we live in malaysia so when i went out of the airport and im freezing cold... so the beach is the dead sea... the first time i put in my hand and feet and it feels soapy and i dont dare to taste it heheh :D
well guess what? i didnt take so many pictures..weird isnt it i am a picture crazy girl and i dont take lot of picture -.- sad case isnt it?
so you guys are wondering why i didnt wear tshirts like use to right??? so here is the story..

Palestine is a beautiful country.. the environment there is so different from Jordan... so as we reach there we went to visit Nabi Musa's makam.. makam is a memorial place as in the prophet used to go there not a burial place now only i know hahhah. so our aim was to go to the Aqsa mosque...the first day our tour guide said that the bad weather surrounding Jerusalem.. so we didnt go.. then we planned with ustaz kamal to go early morning in subuh.. and we didnt make it.. it was raining although not heavily but it was soooo extremely cold.. so when the tour guide brought us to the visit jerusalem like places Hebron, Bettlehem.. our ustaz say no. we want to go to the mosque. then everyone agreed to go.. Yes! it was raining and extremely cold.. as what the tour guide say it was raining + snow :O but we dont care... we took aroung 20 minutes walking to the Aqsa mosque with the coldness.. yes we made it sad part that was the first visit and we couldnt go there anymore coz the tour guide said the boarder are closing early as they are celebrating festival... ;( sad sad sad case coz i thought of snapping pics the next visit as it was raining at that time... and i didnt bring my dslr.. i used my hp camera so i didnt want to spoil my hp as that is the only way for me to contact home hahah since my mom's hp cant go for roaming... so yeahh.. that visit makes me freeze like crazy and i couldnt feel my hand and face its like frozen already.. and right here i wanna say that Alaqsa mosque is the grey kubah.. the inside is in the picture up there.. the one with golden yellow kubah is the dome of the rock.. there is the hanging stone in the israk mikraj.. they claimed that it is not hanging and put the cement on the side and they dig a hole down there.. actually it is hanging.. please if you have an oppurtunity to go there please go do not be afraid of the soldiers just go and pray in al aqsa.. so i went back after spending 3D2N there..
and Madinah here i come (: hahahah so Madinah is an awesome place.. i feel so undescribedable there hahahah.. well it feels good to go to the Nabawi mosque.. well no worries about the language all the arab there speaks malay and indon so i think no problem to shop but remember the aim which is to go for prayer at the Nabawi mosque everytime solat fardhu.. Next Makkah... nice place but i hate that tower.. i feel like it is a robot that are going to destroy the beautiful of Kaabah. Alhamdulillah i khatam once there after 3 years i know thats bad but yeahh Alhamdulillah.. And it is crowded there really crowded 24/7 hrs.. u can go early in the morning u can find people sleeping.. u can go late at night people wont stop going.. when you go for tawaf the people there especially the kelly and mumble love to push others aside and the main problem is please lahh u are doing your ibadah in front of Kaabah please stop recording or taking pictures... just forget about the world for a while and do the best in your ibadah.. this is not to show your families and friends that you have been there and you are really proud of it NO! please! wake up this is to show that you bring your body full of sins to repent and turn into a new leaf.. please mind your tawaf and remember that God is watching you.. you are at His place.. so please think about it. u can take pics but after u have done everything.. i really mean everything! OK! hahah.. well i know im not perfect but that is just my opinion (: so people please vesit the mosque.. Insyaallah if u have time and money please go and visit go and feel the experience.. dont mind how much you need to spent but think how much Allah gave you and how much did you pay Him back (: which i think we did nothing to pay him back :O so work out on our ibadah (: May Allah accept our ibadah (;