if the eyes dont cry the heart will

Allah understands our prayers even when we can't find the right words to express it.


entah kenapa lately rasa mcm nak jumpa someone nak tell her everything wat ive went through hug her and cry.. rasa mcm lost! i felt that nothing left for me to look forward to :'( and usually kalau rasa mcm tu mesti cari una.. kenapa una? coz i felt comfortable talking to her.. and she knows when im not ok.. tp sejak peristiwa akak kahwin i realised something.. i cant tell her everything.. she may know when im not ok.. but she didnt know what am i hiding from her..  sampaikan una ckp dah hbs exam pun stress ke? huhuhu life pun blh buat kt stress jugak :D mak? she is my very the best the friend ;) tapi sometimes there is things i prefer to keep to myself rather than telling her

takkan tak de kwn nak bg tau? ada je.. tp i doubt they can keep it.. its not about how much i trust them.. i trust my friends.. tp that one peristiwa yg berlaku when i was in form 3.. i told my friends what am i going through yet I feel that they thought what I said is all lies and i thought that they thought what i really wanted is their attention.. despite its so hard to tell my situation really is, it is hard for me to make them trust me.. lagi pun tak nak bebankan diorg  tp mai ada ckp kawan apa kalau tak menyusahkan kawan! HAHAHHA

kadang2 dalam dunia realiti bkn psl nak amik exam je blh menyebabkan stress.. tp bnyk lagi benda lain.. rapuh sungguh rasanya.. rasa mcm nak give up.. rasa mcm nak jerit je kat sorg2 ckp masalah yg timbul ni your fault so solve kan lah sendiri.. mcm org lain tak de keje nak fikirkan solution for you.. hikhok :3 kadang2 pelik kenapa org yg sepatutnya menghadapi masalah ni he can be so calm.. he looks just fine like nothing happen and he live happily ever after tanpa menyedari masalah yg dah timbul.. kadang2 rasa mcm nak sepak je sorg2! diorg ni hidup berkhayal ke?kerenah sorg2 lain.. why cant they help me? i cant do this ALONE! mana tak gundah gulana hidup nihhh..

skali ada org ni nasihat.. dia ckp perempuan ada satu masa bila dia rasa mcm semua tak betul.. Kadangkala Allah beri kita rasa sunyi dan rasa keseorangan walaupun ada insan di sekeliling kita,sebenarnya Allah hendak melihat kita menangis,mengadu dan bersujud kpd-Nya. high hopes :3
baru rasa mcm smgt nak teruskan life.. 

skali pg tadi ada lah ustzh ni ckp.. 
bila kt didatangkan ujian.. jgn mudah mengeluh.. tanpa kt ketahui Allah sgt menyayangi kt ;) sbb Allah dah tetapkan darjat kt semua dkt syurga.. tp melihat amalan kt yg terlampau sedikit jadi Allah timpakan ujian,, and Allah takkan menguji melebihi yg kt mampu..


lps tu ustz tu ckp.. cuba tgk haiwan.. burung.. diorg hidup kadang2 dpt makanan cukup utk dia je.. kadang2 cukup utk anak2 dia je.. tak pernah pulak dia pegi patuk dinding sampai berdarah paruh dia... cicak pulak hidup dia melekat kat dinding tp makanan dia semua blh terbang.. tak de pulak cicak ni mengadu tak de sayap.. akhir skali cacing! cacing ditafsirkan ustz ni as OKU total.. kenapa? sbb tak de mata, tgn, kaki semua laah tak de.. tp cacing ni mampu hidup sampai gemuk2! huwaaaa :D SUBHANALLAH :D

kalau ikutkan diri ni mcm rapuh tahap 99.9%.. rasa mcm bila2 nak terjatuh tersungkur rasa mcm i have enough of this! tp dalam hidup kt kena yakin! Allah takkan mezalimi hamba2nya.. put your trust in Allah and buang lah soalan2 like why kt yg ditimpakan ujian mcm ni :) Allah tahu takat mana kt blh buat dan Allah takkan menguji melebihi kemampuan hambaNya..be grateful with tiny things that Allah gave to us.. it matters :D a moment of patience in a moment of anger prevents a thousand moments of regrets (: bila kt rasa dah tak mampu luahkan pada Allah kerana Dialah pemilik ketenangan.. hold on! dunia ni sementara! its a transit! never stop praying (:

hanya dengan mengingati Allah hati akan menjadi tenang ;)

PS credit to lennon for your quotes for my post lol! cilok jap :P

Alhamdulillah Im Proud To Be a Palamian :D

UiTM Puncak Alam

200+ anak tangga yg terpaksa kami redah selama tinggal dkt palam

All praises to Allah! Alhamdulillah :D 2 sem dah pun tamat perjuangan asasian palamian (: Hidup dkt palam bnyk mengajar tentang hidup.. maklumlah skolah dkt peejayy.. skolah yg bebas dlm pergaulan.. lelaki dan perempuan, Islam dan non muslim kami bergaul.. its awesome to be in both places..

Hidup dekat uni tak sama mcm dkt skolah.. everything we need in uni is effort.. as long as you put in your effort Insyaallah Allah will make it easier for you in everything.. tp jgn lupa doa! mula2 susah nak adapt! i took 1 whole sem to adapt in palam.. it hurts me just because i hate being away from my mother and im used to living at home.. Alhamdulillah Allah open my heart and yes i did adapt living there :D

so begin with my class :) Something that i always look up for! they make me smile! we cry together! asalkan kt buat trip tak kisahlah dari class trip sampai lah ke outing masyaallah only Allah knows what we went through.. masalah transportnya lain, masalah tmptnya lain.. but Alhamdulillah with Allahs' help we succeed overcome the problems alhamdulillah (:

this is le class rep! Muhammad Nur Islam bin Zahari..
He call me taman -___- youtube search taman rasyidah utama by awie plzz :[

le maths lecturer! madam tong! she never pull me down, she always give her best
hoping to be like her one day Insyaallah!

Miss Laily! :D my mentor! she really helped me a lot during my foundation!
May Allah bless you Miss ;)

Last day of lecture! :D A3! not all of them are in the pic btw

so its not about introducing who taught me who didnt! but its all about our bond! Subhanallah! i am very impressed with our bond throughout this 2 sems.. An awesome class rep! hambarism jokes in class.. Lecturers always complain about our class.. we've been so noisy! but i think to have an awesome class is all about bonding! we have a siblings bond ;) and i know most of the class doesnt :P

So we went to Perak for our class trip! ye gua tempurung! tp sayaaaaaang tak de gmbr dkt situ since ktorg amik package yg paling adventurous! masuk air dari hujung rmbut sampai hujung kaki.. A credit to my classmates during our class trip laah.. Masa masuk gua tu dgn cabaran dia mmg pergh! terbaek! bila nak kena slide turun tu igt lg mcm mana budak lelaki terpaksa tampung berat ktorg.. #terharu walaupun diorg bukanlah org yg pergi gym ke apa tp sbb diorg ni gentleman mmg salute! ye budak lelaki class kt tersgtlaah gentleman! knp? bkn je sbb tu bnyk lg sbb.. masa kluar outing dgn diorg pape masalah pun diorg akan cuba utk protect the girls from any harmful situations :) subhanallah.. selama ni igt species jenis ni dah pupus! tp mesti ada kekurangannya kaan?

Nak dijadikan citer masa class trip tu~ ktorg pegi memancing :D pancing2 punya pancing lepas 3 umpan hilang akhirnya dpt jugaaa :D lps tu class rep pulak memancing fuhhh :O dia bukan je pancing ikan! dia pi pancing bot yg kami duk ramai2 naik tu ha! mcm mana? dia nak pi baling dia punya mata kail tu jauh2.. tp apakan daya dia campak jauh mana pun tersangkut kat atas bumbung bot kami! adoyaaii! lps tu! si kaaar ni haa! pi lak ckp kalau kau dpt ikan aku cium lah ikan tu haa kaaau

dia ni mcm2 dia bela.. setakat cium ikan tu celah gigi ja :D

our kuala sepetang cruise! :D

our escape for bio eco project!

haa pastu kami pi bukit malawati lak :D aslam dgn ran jd tour guide (: happy much! sbb dah lama nak pi sana tp hajat tidak kesampaian :(

haa! sebenarnya yg nak habaq nihh ! ni kat bawah ni haa! depa laah yg jadi insyaallah kwn dunia akhirat cheq.. adoii rimas ahh longhat! ok! diorg ni tatkala kt rasa gusar, gelisah diorg yg selalu bg pandangan.. bila ada masalah diorg lah yg kt cari.. kadang2 terdetik dkt hati nak sembunyikan tp mesti diorg dgn jayanya mengorek rahsia -___- ada yg kata bila kt berkwn dgn org yg suka menyebarkan ilmu, dan mematuhi syriat Allah, hati akan jadi tenang.. Alhamdulillah.. dgn mai selalu dpt input tntg agama.. dia bnyk bg smgt supaya jgn putus asa.. tp tu semua nasihat drpd Allah menerusi Mai.. Alhamdulillah :D pernah tak kwn kejut utk tahajjud? atau igtkan malam jumaat utk baca al kahfi? alhamdulillah again :D im blessed to have my friends to wake me up early in the morning for tahajjud prayer tp kadang2 tumpas  dgn nafsu tidur yg melahap -___-

me-raja-syahirah-humaira

 special thanks to mai for all the advice you gave me, thank you so much for being there whenever i need you :) Raja pun! syahirah pun!

my photography! :D well i have hobby capturing scenery! weeee

my bond! raja farah izzaty raja idzhar

a wonderful experience tanam pokok bakau ;) and yes! ran is one yg i can trust! 

le lab report friends :D 

last skali the night our final paper before everyone go with their own way..

sepanjang dkt uitm sebenarnya mengajar diriku siapa itu Allah.. mungkin bila duduk rumah i felt that im protected since im living with my parents.. sgt lain bila duduk asrama where we need to take care our ownself.. dkt situ jugaklah kt belajar berdikari dan yg paling penting belajar agama... rakan2 taklim bnyk share ilmu! majlis2 agama yg persatuan rakan masjid buat pun tersgtlah bnyk.. its up to us whether to attend or do our own work.. statement uitm uni sosial tak wajar sbb sebenarnya bnyk aktiviti2 yg diorg buat bagi menyematkan cintakan Allah dan Rasulullah dalam hati kt semua tp terpulang kpd kt nak pilih yg mana.. tak kisahlah bila kt dicampak ke mana sekali pun kt yg akan menentukan siapa kt.. mmg Allah telah menulis suratan kehidupan kt dkt luh mahfuz tp Allah kurniakan kt akal utk berfikir dan menilai yg mana yg baik dan buruk..