Tuesday 16 April 2013

if the eyes dont cry the heart will


Allah understands our prayers even when we can't find the right words to express it.


entah kenapa lately rasa mcm nak jumpa someone nak tell her everything wat ive went through hug her and cry.. rasa mcm lost! i felt that nothing left for me to look forward to :'( and usually kalau rasa mcm tu mesti cari una.. kenapa una? coz i felt comfortable talking to her.. and she knows when im not ok.. tp sejak peristiwa akak kahwin i realised something.. i cant tell her everything.. she may know when im not ok.. but she didnt know what am i hiding from her..  sampaikan una ckp dah hbs exam pun stress ke? huhuhu life pun blh buat kt stress jugak :D mak? she is my very the best the friend ;) tapi sometimes there is things i prefer to keep to myself rather than telling her

takkan tak de kwn nak bg tau? ada je.. tp i doubt they can keep it.. its not about how much i trust them.. i trust my friends.. tp that one peristiwa yg berlaku when i was in form 3.. i told my friends what am i going through yet I feel that they thought what I said is all lies and i thought that they thought what i really wanted is their attention.. despite its so hard to tell my situation really is, it is hard for me to make them trust me.. lagi pun tak nak bebankan diorg  tp mai ada ckp kawan apa kalau tak menyusahkan kawan! HAHAHHA

kadang2 dalam dunia realiti bkn psl nak amik exam je blh menyebabkan stress.. tp bnyk lagi benda lain.. rapuh sungguh rasanya.. rasa mcm nak give up.. rasa mcm nak jerit je kat sorg2 ckp masalah yg timbul ni your fault so solve kan lah sendiri.. mcm org lain tak de keje nak fikirkan solution for you.. hikhok :3 kadang2 pelik kenapa org yg sepatutnya menghadapi masalah ni he can be so calm.. he looks just fine like nothing happen and he live happily ever after tanpa menyedari masalah yg dah timbul.. kadang2 rasa mcm nak sepak je sorg2! diorg ni hidup berkhayal ke?kerenah sorg2 lain.. why cant they help me? i cant do this ALONE! mana tak gundah gulana hidup nihhh..

skali ada org ni nasihat.. dia ckp perempuan ada satu masa bila dia rasa mcm semua tak betul.. Kadangkala Allah beri kita rasa sunyi dan rasa keseorangan walaupun ada insan di sekeliling kita,sebenarnya Allah hendak melihat kita menangis,mengadu dan bersujud kpd-Nya. high hopes :3
baru rasa mcm smgt nak teruskan life.. 

skali pg tadi ada lah ustzh ni ckp.. 
bila kt didatangkan ujian.. jgn mudah mengeluh.. tanpa kt ketahui Allah sgt menyayangi kt ;) sbb Allah dah tetapkan darjat kt semua dkt syurga.. tp melihat amalan kt yg terlampau sedikit jadi Allah timpakan ujian,, and Allah takkan menguji melebihi yg kt mampu..


lps tu ustz tu ckp.. cuba tgk haiwan.. burung.. diorg hidup kadang2 dpt makanan cukup utk dia je.. kadang2 cukup utk anak2 dia je.. tak pernah pulak dia pegi patuk dinding sampai berdarah paruh dia... cicak pulak hidup dia melekat kat dinding tp makanan dia semua blh terbang.. tak de pulak cicak ni mengadu tak de sayap.. akhir skali cacing! cacing ditafsirkan ustz ni as OKU total.. kenapa? sbb tak de mata, tgn, kaki semua laah tak de.. tp cacing ni mampu hidup sampai gemuk2! huwaaaa :D SUBHANALLAH :D

kalau ikutkan diri ni mcm rapuh tahap 99.9%.. rasa mcm bila2 nak terjatuh tersungkur rasa mcm i have enough of this! tp dalam hidup kt kena yakin! Allah takkan mezalimi hamba2nya.. put your trust in Allah and buang lah soalan2 like why kt yg ditimpakan ujian mcm ni :) Allah tahu takat mana kt blh buat dan Allah takkan menguji melebihi kemampuan hambaNya..be grateful with tiny things that Allah gave to us.. it matters :D a moment of patience in a moment of anger prevents a thousand moments of regrets (: bila kt rasa dah tak mampu luahkan pada Allah kerana Dialah pemilik ketenangan.. hold on! dunia ni sementara! its a transit! never stop praying (:

hanya dengan mengingati Allah hati akan menjadi tenang ;)








PS credit to lennon for your quotes for my post lol! cilok jap :P

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