27 FEB 2012

cepat datang ye! saya akan mempersiapkan diri sebaik mungkin. Dengan izin Allah harap2 semua berjalan lancar! masih banyak yang perlu diperbaiki (: sifat2 mazmumah pun bnyk bersarang lagii dalam diri yang hina ni... banyak persiapan yang belum dilakukan. tapi saya excited! saya betul2 nak pegi (: YA ALLAH MAKBULKANLAH PERMINTAAN HAMBAMU INI AMEEN...
before 24 FEB:
- balik JB
-balik penang
-Shopping apa yg patut
doakan saya semua :D

my 1 day love

hihih went to an event! omg! i love the way he teach! i love the way he makes jokes! then off to the dreamland and still think about him. DAMN i hate that! it just interrupt my life hahah! i started to find his fb ----> owhh yeah found it! ----> oh no! his in relationship! -----> started laughing -----> i knew we can never be together
from the beginning... hmmm i dont feel sad at all :P thats funny! it looks like experience taught me enough of choosing the right man in life. experience told me to never think of love! experience told me to LOVE ALLAH! experience told me to success in my life than think about this lovey dovey thingy! So im still learning how to LOVE ALLAH! im still learning everything! OK! so now you know why i didnt feel anything when everyone got their couple except me :D i want a guy who respect me as a woman. i want a guy who is loving caring and loves kids coz im not in love with kids. i want a guy who really understand me and accept me the way i am not asking me to be anyone else. i want a guy that will pray for me in every prayer, does not tear off when im dead, put me into the liang lahad and tell the earth to accept me as a mukmin, and doesnt give his love to me at the first place but put Allah, Rasulullah, his parents and can i be next? im a jealous person! VERY! and im very SENSTIVE! so can anyone fulfill this characteristics and i accept him in my life. money doesnt make me happy but the people whom i'll be living with will make me either happy or sad. i think thats kinda too much :P PUT ALLAH AND RASULULLAH FIRST! everything in your life would be easier thats all i need (:

senyuman yang terukir di bibir, lirik pandangan mata dan raut wajahku langsung tidak dapat menggambarkan hatiku. hatiku yang semakin rapuh akibat menahan sabar rasanya bakal runtuh tidak lama lagi. tiba2 teringat kepada satu ayat yang berbunyi "Allah tidak akan menguji hambaNya dengan dugaan yang tidak dapat ditanggung oleh hambaNya" Allah itu Maha Penyayang tak mungkin akan bertindak kejam. Jadi apa yang dilakukan oleh hatiku yang rapuh ini hanyalah berdoa ' Ya Allah, ampunilah segala dosa hamba. Mungkin ini merupakan balasan atas segala sifat buruk yang hamba lakukan. Ya Allah, engkau telah menutup segala keaiban hambaMu ini tidak dapat hamba membalas segala yang engkau telah lakukan. Ya Allah ampunilah segala dosa kedua-dua ibu bapa hamba dan adik-beradik hamba. Berikanlah kami kekuatan. Hanya kepadaMu hamba memohon. Amin... dugaan yang datang mungkin merupakan jalan Allah ingin menambahkan pahala hambanya atau cara Allah untuk membalas segala dosa hambaNya. Lebih baik diuji di dunia daripada diseksa di akhirat kelak yang sudah tentunya lebih dahsyat. hari ini seorang guru telah menceritakan sebuah kisah kepadaku. seorang nabi*maaf saya kurang pasti nama Nabi tersebut* yang menghidupkan seorang yang telah meninggal dunia. mayat tersebut lalu berkata ' kenapa wahai nabi engkau membangkitkan aku? penatku berdiri selama 70 tahun masih belum habis lagi.' lalu nabi bertanya ' kenapa engkau dihukum untuk berdiri selama 70 tahun?' lalu dia menjawab ' aku dahulunya bekerja sebagai seorang pencari kayu api. apabila kayu api yang telah dikumpulkan lalu salah satu kayu api telah terjatuh. aku pun mula merungut. disebabkan itulah si pencari kayu api itu dihukum oleh Allah untuk berdiri selama 70 TAHUN. kayu api yang terjatuh itu merupakan kehendak Allah dan apabila si pencari kayu api itu merungut maka dia telah merungut tentang Allah. MASYAALLAH! saya rasa kita dah jauh tersasar kan? cepat2 lah bertaubat sebelum ajal datang dan menjemput kita. RENUNG-RENUNGKAN DAN SELAMAT BERAMAL (:

SOLAT

Solat senang saja disebut. perkataan yg senang diungkapkan. pergerakan yg senang untuk dilakukan. tapi saya nak tanya ada ke org sekarang yg dpt menghayati solat itu? solat lima minit je. sehari lima kali umat islam solat. tapi antara kelima-lima waktu berapa waktu kita dapat khusyuk dalam solat? saya belajar solat sejak kecil. dulu masa saya hampir-hampir beralih dari Iqra kepada Al Quran, Ustaz Rosli ckp saya diturunkan pangkat maksudnya kena turun Iqra balik.. siapa lahh yang tak kecewa kannn!!! tapi sekarang saya sedar tajwid saya tak betul. hukum tajwid yg salah blh mempengaruhi maksud ayat. jadi memang patutlah saya diturunkan pangkat :) berbalik kepada soal solat. sejak belakangan ini, saya rasa hidup saya gelap sangat, dan bila saya berdoa tiba-tiba teringat balik. Rupa-rupanya saya ada berjanji, saya berjanji supaya akan mendekatkan diri dgn Allah lepas SPM sbb masa agak lapang.. tapi saya lupa janji saya... orang yang memungkiri janji salah satu ciri2 munafik.. hmmm astaghfirullahalazim! jadi saya nak  kotakan janji saya :D jadi saya pun ikutlah mak saya ke kelas agama... walaupun sikit saya dapat better than nothing kann??Kebetulan ustaz mengajar tafsir.. dia mengajar tafsir doa iftitah… dia ckp selalunya masa solat kita selalu lalai… ingt benda dkt luar solat.. mmg betullah apa ustaz ckp. Walaupun dah bertahun aku mendirikan solat, erti khusyuk masih belum pernah sebati dalam solatku kalau ada pun jarang2 saja. Pernah tak dgr kisah saidina umar. Setiap para sahabat telah berada khusyuk walaupun hanya berada dlm saf dan belum memulakan solat. Saidina umar akan cek saf setiap jemaah dgn pedang, lalu ada seorang musuh Islam telah membunuh saidina umar. Para jemaah tidak sedar pun pembunuhan saidina umar sehinggalah saidina umar berteriak kesakitan! Hmm begitulah khusyuknya para sahabat pada zaman dahulu. Tapi kita zaman sekarang?  Sendiri fikirlah kann… mengejar nikmat solat telah lama menjadi sasaran aku. Setiap daie yang aku tny cara2 nya pasti menjwab kenal pasti lahh maksud ayat yang dibaca dlm solat. Aku tertanya2 mcm mana nak khusyuk aku tak pandai Arab pun.. sehinggalah pada akhir tahun 2009 seorang pakar bahasa arab telah mengajarku maksud surah al fatihah. Masyaallah bila aku baca dlm solat sambil mengetahui maksudnya SUBHANALLAH! Sejuknya hati baca surah tersebut. tapi bila akhirnya surah tu haishhh mulalah melayang-layang fikiran. Betul mmg lahh kita kena faham setiap ayat yg dibaca. *pastikan ada guru yg menterjemahkan setiap maksud dengan betul semasa menterjemah ayat Al Quran. Jadi untuk khusyuk dlm solat kita mestilah faham isi kandungan ayat yang dibaca dlm solat dan untuk memahami ayat Quran mestilah ada usaha. Jadi marilah kita meningkatkan mutu ibadah kita sbb solat itu tiang agama dan solat itu dapat mencegah kemungkaran :D pernah sekali saya melihat siaran langsung solat terawih di Masjidil Haram dlm 10 malam terakhir Ramadhan ramai orang Arab yang menangis semasa ayat Quran dibaca. Alangkah baiknya kalau kita pun dapat menghayati sama2 bacaan Imam tersebut kan!!

 

L.O.V.E.

people often say dont write love on the beach coz the wave will wash it away... write ur love in ur heart coz it will never be depleted...

experience made me to be aware of every single feelings toward a guy. i knew how hurt it can be when the person we love betray us. i knew how hurt it would be when we tried to tell the real situation to the person we love but they thought we lied. i knew each and every single feelings when a person we love hurt our feelings.. so i made a decision... i dont wanna love someone until that person really loves me (;

when he texted me i'll jump up and down to my handphone. i'll keep smiling while reading every single word he wrote.. but i knew we can never be together. because i write my love for him on the beach so that the wave will wash it away. im just too scared to be hurt coz the experince teach me to love my self before loving others.. now the main thing is i need to find my way how to love ALLAH before loving myself... LOVE FOR ALLAH WHICH WILL NEVER END (:

if i could go anywhere for my vacation i would love to go to

MASJIDIL HARAM, MASJIDIL AQSA AND MASJIDIL NABAWI... WHY??

MASJIDIL HARAM

Muslims holds that the Mosque was first built by the angels before the creation of mankind, whenGod ordained a place of worship on Earth to reflect the house in heaven called al-Baytu l-Ma'mur (Arabic: البيت المعمور, "The Worship Place of Angels"). From time to time, the Mosque was damaged by a storm (flood) and was rebuilt anew. According to Islamic belief it was rebuilt by Ibrahim, with the help of his sonIsmail. They were ordered by God to build the mosque, and the Kaaba. The Black Stone (Hajar-ul-aswad)is situated on the lower side of the eastern corner of the Kaaba, believed to be the only remnant of the original structure made by Ibrahim. The Kaaba is the direction for all the Muslims to pray across the globe thus signifying unity among all. The Islamic teaching specifically mentions that nothing is miraculous about the Grand Mosque except for the oasis Zamzam which has purportedly never dried since it was revealed.

MASJIDIL NABAWI

often called theProphet's Mosque, is a mosque situated in the city of Medina. As the final resting place of the Islamic prophetMuhammad, it is considered the second holiest site in Islam by Muslims (the first being the Masjid al-Haram inMecca) and is one of the largest mosques in the world. The mosque is under the control of the Custodian of the Two Holy Mosques. It is the second mosque built in history.One of the most notable features of the site is the Green Dome over the center of the mosque, where the tomb of Muhammad is located. It is not exactly known when the green dome was constructed but manuscripts dating to the early 12th century describe the dome. It is known as the Dome of the Prophet or the Green Dome.^[1] Subsequent Islamic rulers greatly expanded and decorated it. Early Muslim leaders Abu Bakr and Umar are buried in an adjacent area in the mosque.The site was originally Muhammad's house; he settled there after his Hijra (emigration) to Medina, later building a mosque on the grounds. He himself shared in the heavy work of construction.
MASJIDIL AQSA
Al-Aqsa Mosque (Arabic:المسجد الاقصى al-Masjid al-Aqsa, IPA: [ʔælˈmæsʒɪd ælˈʔɑqsˤɑ] ( listen), "the Farthest Mosque,") also known as al-Aqsa, is the third holiest site in Sunni Islam and is located in the Old City of Jerusalem. The site on which the silver domed mosque sits, along with the Dome of the Rock, also referred to as al-Haram ash-Sharif or "Noble Sanctuary,"^[2] is the Temple Mount, the holiest site in Judaism, the place where the Temple is generally accepted to have stood. Muslims believe that Muhammadwas transported from the Sacred Mosque in Mecca to al-Aqsa during the Night Journey.Islamic tradition holds that Muhammad led prayers towards this site until the seventeenth month after the emigration, when God directed him to turn towards the Ka'aba.

YUP IM IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE :DD

well, actually i knew him since i was small. He is a really great person, a good leader, a romantic husband, well u name it he complete all of those. Once i told my mum can i marry him?? just because i had said there will be NO ONE can melt my heart like he did. I REALLY ADMIRE HIM. he knew me although i didnt even knew him. he  LOVES me b4 i could even love him. At the end of his life, he even called for all of us UMMATI! UMMATI! UMMATI!. How can my heart be tough enough to say no from loving him. He went through all kind of challenges so that i can say that IM PROUD TO BE A MUSLIM! Even in the future he will help me to go to heaven. INSYALLAH. its just the matter that did i do enough to repay him. the answer will be I CAN NEVER PAY HIM BACK. he did A LOT for me. He did left me something b4 he died sunnah and Quran. I can never lost with this two guidance. YAA RABB, THANK YOU FOR GIVING ME A GOOD AND GREAT LEADER. I REALLY WANT TO MEET HIM. YA RABB PLZ MAKE IT A REALITY. AMIN. law kana bynana... i would be very happy (:

well the answer for the question that i asked my mom.. IT IS A NO!! why not?? im not good enough for him. im so full of sin but he never did anthing wrong in life because he is PERFECT. yesterday the ustaz told me in his speech :
- Jangan berangan ingin menjadi isteri Rasulullah jikalau engkau tidak sehebat Siti Khadijah.
well im nothing compared to Siti Khadijah. Now realised who i am but i will never stop loving him. PEACE BE UPON YOU YA RASULULLAH SAW AND YOUR FAMILY...