Love In The Air (part II)

ok how should i start? hurmmm.. ok.. hurmm :| i dont know how should i start.. its something i would say lumrah for us to fall in love? yeahh.. every single human being on earth has this feeling called love.. i would say a person is a monster without love hihi.. so there will be a time when we surrender every single thing for our love rite? of course we always want the very best for our beloved ones rite? especially when we have been in love for quite some time.. that person would be our world.. thats why people called love is blind am i right? yes.. love is blind.. when we fell for someone we would give everything.. our time, money, our soul, and even ourself.. we surrender it to that particular person.. just like romeo and juliet? its when true love occurs people would do insane things to be together including committing suicide.. well no committing suicide is haram :3 take note it is haram! hihi but the main point i wanna say is that person is in our heart.. they own it.. they mean every single thing to us.. 

let me quote what she wrote " if being in love means our life are in pieces and we are completely broken, miserable, hardly able to function, and willing to sacrifice everything chances are its not love..  if love for something makes us willing to give up our family, self respect, sanity, peace of mind our deen and even our Lord who created us from nothing know that we ARE NOT IN LOVE.. we are SLAVES..

when you think you are falling in love.. try ask this questions : have you ever forget about the world when you go for solat five times a day? well that means a date with Allah.. do this so called true love brings you towards Allah or away  from him? do take your own sweet time to think..True love would never contradict or compete for one's love for Allah.. when someone leave us and our world turn upside down try ask yourself is Allah in you heart or that person own your heart? 

I knew someone who really love this guy.. yeah they were together but she decided to stop their relationship for Allah. it was heartbreaking for me myself to see her can i call you lost your mind? haha but she really did.. even that guy felt miserable.. well i dont have any experience on relationship so i guess its fine for me to use her as my example? i guess :3 yes they were so in love.. when she decided to stop contact this guy, they went miserable... and what i can only say to her is kalau jodoh awk mmg dgn dia tak kiralah awk kat kutub utara dia kat kutub selatan you guys are going to end up together.. this girl was a brave one.. she did that for Allah.. May Allah bless her effort and grant her reward she wouldnt expected.. they even came to a conclusion of getting married.. and right now i can say she is doing fine i hope so.. both of them.. those struggles she went through i know it hurts.. but if i could advice right now i would say true love wont make you be like a drug addict.. its hard i know, step by wicked step hihi i know you can do this and she had already made it :D 

When Allah is in our heart, every single thing that happen it would not let us down.. but we will continue to raise higher :D insyaallah.. even the world let us down as long as Allah is with us does that even matter? No more.. it doesnt matter as long as Allah is with us.. life in this world is like a traveller.. well i used to say but i didnt feel that.. i know there is a life in hereafter but no single action was taken for me to get to my real destination.. its like travelling in the dessert and you stop by oasis? that is not your destination its just a pit stop.. every single time the world knock us down try to remember jannah, our destination.. so i guess thats what ive gain from reading the book (: change now coz its never too late? yeahhh :) lets set our aim is Jannah.. struggle to empty the heart from this world.. Let Allah fill our heart (: im just a beginner.. i have no idea whats gonna happen to me later on :( so do pray for all of us :) and yeahh! its second half of Ramadhan wish you all happy beribadah? lets seek for forgiveness.. we dont wanna left with nothing after Ramadhan ends :( set our aim and start working.. May Allah bless you 

Love Is In The Air

currently im reading Reclaim Your Heart by Yasmin Mogahed.. yeah ive said that in twitter for i dont know how many times hahaha.. so i felt like sharing soooo much but im so sure it wouldnt be as cool as reading the book yourself :3 im just trying to relate how does what she states in the book affected me... p/s you can also try to read her blog more or less the same what is written in the book (:

my story starts during my sem break.. yeah its like Now? ehemmm.. yeahhh.. hmmm.. something i fear the most during sem break is being away from Him.. usually during my life in palam to me that is when i could feel that He is everything to me.. coz usually i'll just cry when im sad and if im angry i just have no mood to talk, if im ill there's only me and Him.. so the conclusion is He was there every single second when i smile, laugh, sad, angry.. He was there for me all the time.. and of course there's my friends which i call true friends who are there to advise me..but at home i feel more protected.. simply because you have your parents so you dont need to worry much.. its like the protected feelings.. you dont need to worry if you are sick or something coz your parents are always there? yeahh sort of that feeling.. how does this create a gap between me and Allah?

its when i start depending on his servant rather than Him.. this just make me feel further than him.. and that is what happen when im at home.. depend too much on my parents.. hurmm :| and yes im lacking of tarbiyah at home :( no one would like you know its like advise you? share stories with you? yeahh.. *cries a river* i felt soooo extremely lonely? yeahh no new stories, i rarely whatsapp my friends? parents are busy.. yeahhh... so its kinda lifeless and yes my precious time are gone just like that :( *watery eyes* so there's time when i feel that my heart is just soooooo hard.. harder than a rock? i tend to delay my solat.. well just take it as being further away from Allah.. that confusion in me, that asdfghjkl feeling made me think that how would i keep attached to Allah eventhough im at home? coz i feel very empty without Him.. im still searching.. yeahh so that is how i came about this book :3

the first chapter is about attachment.. how you feel bonded to something.. something you dont wanna lose and at the same time you fear of losing.. this is my deepest chapter.. every single time i met someone its really easy for me to feel attached and i just dont wanna lose them.. but i know that somehow we are not going to be together forever.. something that make you feel greedy? and something you want in your life forever? yeahh.. but that some time to reflect how many things that came in your life stays forever? and are you sure that its gonna stay in the future? nothing.. nothing came in this life permanent except Allah.. your wealth, health, even love.. let me quote what she said " put Allah in your heart and the world in your hand" something that stay in the heart would affect you deeply so when you replace with something temporary you just end up with heartbreak perhaps..

you need something that stay forever in your heart.. Put Allah in your heart and the world is going to run after your.. after all we all know that Allah is the one and only Creator.. He is the one who in control for every single thing that is going to happen.. if we get attach with his servant what makes you think that its going to last forever? ok a short example is.. if someone is attach to money? yeah.. he loves money.. money is in his heart, his attachment.. he did haram things to gain money coz to him doing halal thing would consume a lot of time and maybe we might not get a large amount of money bla bla bla.. kay we all know haram is still haram.. you cant do it when it is haram.. now think from another perspective.. Allah is the one who give you rezeki.. why doubt Him? Why do something He hates to earn money when you actually get rezeki from him? so the point is Allah is everything.. put Allah in our heart and dont worry about the world because Allah controls everything :) how was that? hihih

okayyy! the next chapter comes love <3

CoNfUsEd

with my class 5Jujur, 2011, S.P.

do your classmates do this? ahahahahahh

see? i miss them :(

i knew something is wrong but i dont know what is wrong get me? yeah.. having some problem :( identity crisis :( the old me is fighting the new me.. actually i love the old me.. the ones who actually has the confidence to voice out le opinion and object others.. ok sebenarnya i miss debating.. me in uni have no confident to voice out my opinion.. in lecture hall too.. when i have questions i usually just keep my mouth shut coz i think that my question would be silly and others might laugh at me? yeahh seriously.. because they are too genius that sometime i think that i dont fit to be with them.. fail the same paper twice in one sem? how would you expect me to gain my confidence? whereas in my school i would just raise up my hand and start bashing the teachers with questions that piled up in my head.. yeah..

aite! how does this actually comes to my mind? i mean why so sudden i was thinking about this identity thingy? i like the new me but i love the old me more! so this is how it begin.. went out with le classmates on teachers day :D yeahh! happy to meet them! miss them a lot like crazyhhh! i didnt thought that i miss them that much lol! but yes i seriously miss them when we actually gather at subway for lunch.. that moment when they forced me to sit between heikal and J.R. im like i cant sit between them! they are not my mahram! and its haram! well since we didnt do any mistake i mean we just sit there and eat.. not like we do anything pun.. so i become hurmm ok! and then i realised the new me doesnt really like that situation but the old me is fine to it..

 before that on our way to paradigm i was in arif's car since the other car is FULL CAPACITY yo! so yeah between all of us i decided to go with arif and tado.. and suddenly the new me say hey!! i cant be here! im the only girl! shouldnt do this! but the old me are used to being alone with guys.. obviously! thats normal for the old me to be with guys although im alone becauseeeee im not doing anything wrong! i mean i need to go with them since its full in another car.. and i know them.. they are good guys..

sooo next scene is when Arif called me one evening telling me that he is in front of my house with tado..

taken at nano's open hse few years back... and pic below was taken recently

it was his birthday so yeah obviously i was happy to meet him and tado.. and we went to alya's and mr thiru's  hse basically it was an evening walk.. yes! this is who i am! we cant stop quarrelling over small things.. thats me.. when i have my own opinion and i see that people's opinion doesnt make sense i'll start to defend mine.. and yes that was me too!no matter how much we quarrel i never hate him! coz i know its just him.. no one would ever pick a fight with me like him! no one dares to make me sad but then make me happy to cheer me up! yes! i admit that im a harsh type person? but i know my limits.. and him! he is totally him! he doesnt hide his behaviour.. that is what i like about him! that means i can go on quarrelling with him coz i know neither one of us will win.. hahahah.. 

so on that day.. we were talking about culture shock in uni.. yeah most of us will feel that culture shock once we enter a new environment? new style of adapting to the new lifestyle.. yeah! it took me 1 whole sem to adapt to it.. i was from a place where you can see malays, chinese and indians seat together but then it turn out malays everywhere! the mentality are totally different.. yeah! im a social type.. as in i dont mind being with them! im an open minded.. but when it comes to religion what is wrong is wrong no matter if you are the only one who does it right.. get me? i respect others as well..

and suddenly our topic came out to speaking in english.. wait speaking in english is an issue? yes it is.. when you are in an environment when people speaks in english most of the time to a NEW environment where people hate to speak english just because they say they have broken english.. look! we dont care whether you have broken english coz guess what mine is not perfect either! but! since we used to speak english most of the time so we think that speaking english not a big issue until people call you poyo or show off dude or something.. we are just being us? yes! im not good in english i admit that! but taking some effort to polish my english by speaking english is call a crime is totally rubbish mentality.. and yes! my friend was called a sex maniac just because he sits with a girl seriously? 

does that show who he is or who you are? is that how Islam taught you? NO! what i see is these malays are trying to say that they are more islamic people then ourself.. yes i admit that im still learning more about Islam.. but to say NO to this NO to that sometimes make people feel Islam is a hard religion when Islam is actually an awesome one! yes Islam is so detail! every perspective counts! being too harsh on someone is not a good way to dakwah you see.. at times it is annoying! as long as he doesnt do anything haram its fine.. so now you see how confused i am? :( and the best thing is people doesnt realised how much did i change :D yeay for that! and someone kept saying that i havent change! and second yeay for that! thats cool! i want them to treat me the same not any aliens heheheh.. 

if the eyes dont cry the heart will

Allah understands our prayers even when we can't find the right words to express it.


entah kenapa lately rasa mcm nak jumpa someone nak tell her everything wat ive went through hug her and cry.. rasa mcm lost! i felt that nothing left for me to look forward to :'( and usually kalau rasa mcm tu mesti cari una.. kenapa una? coz i felt comfortable talking to her.. and she knows when im not ok.. tp sejak peristiwa akak kahwin i realised something.. i cant tell her everything.. she may know when im not ok.. but she didnt know what am i hiding from her..  sampaikan una ckp dah hbs exam pun stress ke? huhuhu life pun blh buat kt stress jugak :D mak? she is my very the best the friend ;) tapi sometimes there is things i prefer to keep to myself rather than telling her

takkan tak de kwn nak bg tau? ada je.. tp i doubt they can keep it.. its not about how much i trust them.. i trust my friends.. tp that one peristiwa yg berlaku when i was in form 3.. i told my friends what am i going through yet I feel that they thought what I said is all lies and i thought that they thought what i really wanted is their attention.. despite its so hard to tell my situation really is, it is hard for me to make them trust me.. lagi pun tak nak bebankan diorg  tp mai ada ckp kawan apa kalau tak menyusahkan kawan! HAHAHHA

kadang2 dalam dunia realiti bkn psl nak amik exam je blh menyebabkan stress.. tp bnyk lagi benda lain.. rapuh sungguh rasanya.. rasa mcm nak give up.. rasa mcm nak jerit je kat sorg2 ckp masalah yg timbul ni your fault so solve kan lah sendiri.. mcm org lain tak de keje nak fikirkan solution for you.. hikhok :3 kadang2 pelik kenapa org yg sepatutnya menghadapi masalah ni he can be so calm.. he looks just fine like nothing happen and he live happily ever after tanpa menyedari masalah yg dah timbul.. kadang2 rasa mcm nak sepak je sorg2! diorg ni hidup berkhayal ke?kerenah sorg2 lain.. why cant they help me? i cant do this ALONE! mana tak gundah gulana hidup nihhh..

skali ada org ni nasihat.. dia ckp perempuan ada satu masa bila dia rasa mcm semua tak betul.. Kadangkala Allah beri kita rasa sunyi dan rasa keseorangan walaupun ada insan di sekeliling kita,sebenarnya Allah hendak melihat kita menangis,mengadu dan bersujud kpd-Nya. high hopes :3
baru rasa mcm smgt nak teruskan life.. 

skali pg tadi ada lah ustzh ni ckp.. 
bila kt didatangkan ujian.. jgn mudah mengeluh.. tanpa kt ketahui Allah sgt menyayangi kt ;) sbb Allah dah tetapkan darjat kt semua dkt syurga.. tp melihat amalan kt yg terlampau sedikit jadi Allah timpakan ujian,, and Allah takkan menguji melebihi yg kt mampu..


lps tu ustz tu ckp.. cuba tgk haiwan.. burung.. diorg hidup kadang2 dpt makanan cukup utk dia je.. kadang2 cukup utk anak2 dia je.. tak pernah pulak dia pegi patuk dinding sampai berdarah paruh dia... cicak pulak hidup dia melekat kat dinding tp makanan dia semua blh terbang.. tak de pulak cicak ni mengadu tak de sayap.. akhir skali cacing! cacing ditafsirkan ustz ni as OKU total.. kenapa? sbb tak de mata, tgn, kaki semua laah tak de.. tp cacing ni mampu hidup sampai gemuk2! huwaaaa :D SUBHANALLAH :D

kalau ikutkan diri ni mcm rapuh tahap 99.9%.. rasa mcm bila2 nak terjatuh tersungkur rasa mcm i have enough of this! tp dalam hidup kt kena yakin! Allah takkan mezalimi hamba2nya.. put your trust in Allah and buang lah soalan2 like why kt yg ditimpakan ujian mcm ni :) Allah tahu takat mana kt blh buat dan Allah takkan menguji melebihi kemampuan hambaNya..be grateful with tiny things that Allah gave to us.. it matters :D a moment of patience in a moment of anger prevents a thousand moments of regrets (: bila kt rasa dah tak mampu luahkan pada Allah kerana Dialah pemilik ketenangan.. hold on! dunia ni sementara! its a transit! never stop praying (:

hanya dengan mengingati Allah hati akan menjadi tenang ;)

PS credit to lennon for your quotes for my post lol! cilok jap :P

Alhamdulillah Im Proud To Be a Palamian :D

UiTM Puncak Alam

200+ anak tangga yg terpaksa kami redah selama tinggal dkt palam

All praises to Allah! Alhamdulillah :D 2 sem dah pun tamat perjuangan asasian palamian (: Hidup dkt palam bnyk mengajar tentang hidup.. maklumlah skolah dkt peejayy.. skolah yg bebas dlm pergaulan.. lelaki dan perempuan, Islam dan non muslim kami bergaul.. its awesome to be in both places..

Hidup dekat uni tak sama mcm dkt skolah.. everything we need in uni is effort.. as long as you put in your effort Insyaallah Allah will make it easier for you in everything.. tp jgn lupa doa! mula2 susah nak adapt! i took 1 whole sem to adapt in palam.. it hurts me just because i hate being away from my mother and im used to living at home.. Alhamdulillah Allah open my heart and yes i did adapt living there :D

so begin with my class :) Something that i always look up for! they make me smile! we cry together! asalkan kt buat trip tak kisahlah dari class trip sampai lah ke outing masyaallah only Allah knows what we went through.. masalah transportnya lain, masalah tmptnya lain.. but Alhamdulillah with Allahs' help we succeed overcome the problems alhamdulillah (:

this is le class rep! Muhammad Nur Islam bin Zahari..
He call me taman -___- youtube search taman rasyidah utama by awie plzz :[

le maths lecturer! madam tong! she never pull me down, she always give her best
hoping to be like her one day Insyaallah!

Miss Laily! :D my mentor! she really helped me a lot during my foundation!
May Allah bless you Miss ;)

Last day of lecture! :D A3! not all of them are in the pic btw

so its not about introducing who taught me who didnt! but its all about our bond! Subhanallah! i am very impressed with our bond throughout this 2 sems.. An awesome class rep! hambarism jokes in class.. Lecturers always complain about our class.. we've been so noisy! but i think to have an awesome class is all about bonding! we have a siblings bond ;) and i know most of the class doesnt :P

So we went to Perak for our class trip! ye gua tempurung! tp sayaaaaaang tak de gmbr dkt situ since ktorg amik package yg paling adventurous! masuk air dari hujung rmbut sampai hujung kaki.. A credit to my classmates during our class trip laah.. Masa masuk gua tu dgn cabaran dia mmg pergh! terbaek! bila nak kena slide turun tu igt lg mcm mana budak lelaki terpaksa tampung berat ktorg.. #terharu walaupun diorg bukanlah org yg pergi gym ke apa tp sbb diorg ni gentleman mmg salute! ye budak lelaki class kt tersgtlaah gentleman! knp? bkn je sbb tu bnyk lg sbb.. masa kluar outing dgn diorg pape masalah pun diorg akan cuba utk protect the girls from any harmful situations :) subhanallah.. selama ni igt species jenis ni dah pupus! tp mesti ada kekurangannya kaan?

Nak dijadikan citer masa class trip tu~ ktorg pegi memancing :D pancing2 punya pancing lepas 3 umpan hilang akhirnya dpt jugaaa :D lps tu class rep pulak memancing fuhhh :O dia bukan je pancing ikan! dia pi pancing bot yg kami duk ramai2 naik tu ha! mcm mana? dia nak pi baling dia punya mata kail tu jauh2.. tp apakan daya dia campak jauh mana pun tersangkut kat atas bumbung bot kami! adoyaaii! lps tu! si kaaar ni haa! pi lak ckp kalau kau dpt ikan aku cium lah ikan tu haa kaaau

dia ni mcm2 dia bela.. setakat cium ikan tu celah gigi ja :D

our kuala sepetang cruise! :D

our escape for bio eco project!

haa pastu kami pi bukit malawati lak :D aslam dgn ran jd tour guide (: happy much! sbb dah lama nak pi sana tp hajat tidak kesampaian :(

haa! sebenarnya yg nak habaq nihh ! ni kat bawah ni haa! depa laah yg jadi insyaallah kwn dunia akhirat cheq.. adoii rimas ahh longhat! ok! diorg ni tatkala kt rasa gusar, gelisah diorg yg selalu bg pandangan.. bila ada masalah diorg lah yg kt cari.. kadang2 terdetik dkt hati nak sembunyikan tp mesti diorg dgn jayanya mengorek rahsia -___- ada yg kata bila kt berkwn dgn org yg suka menyebarkan ilmu, dan mematuhi syriat Allah, hati akan jadi tenang.. Alhamdulillah.. dgn mai selalu dpt input tntg agama.. dia bnyk bg smgt supaya jgn putus asa.. tp tu semua nasihat drpd Allah menerusi Mai.. Alhamdulillah :D pernah tak kwn kejut utk tahajjud? atau igtkan malam jumaat utk baca al kahfi? alhamdulillah again :D im blessed to have my friends to wake me up early in the morning for tahajjud prayer tp kadang2 tumpas  dgn nafsu tidur yg melahap -___-

me-raja-syahirah-humaira

 special thanks to mai for all the advice you gave me, thank you so much for being there whenever i need you :) Raja pun! syahirah pun!

my photography! :D well i have hobby capturing scenery! weeee

my bond! raja farah izzaty raja idzhar

a wonderful experience tanam pokok bakau ;) and yes! ran is one yg i can trust! 

le lab report friends :D 

last skali the night our final paper before everyone go with their own way..

sepanjang dkt uitm sebenarnya mengajar diriku siapa itu Allah.. mungkin bila duduk rumah i felt that im protected since im living with my parents.. sgt lain bila duduk asrama where we need to take care our ownself.. dkt situ jugaklah kt belajar berdikari dan yg paling penting belajar agama... rakan2 taklim bnyk share ilmu! majlis2 agama yg persatuan rakan masjid buat pun tersgtlah bnyk.. its up to us whether to attend or do our own work.. statement uitm uni sosial tak wajar sbb sebenarnya bnyk aktiviti2 yg diorg buat bagi menyematkan cintakan Allah dan Rasulullah dalam hati kt semua tp terpulang kpd kt nak pilih yg mana.. tak kisahlah bila kt dicampak ke mana sekali pun kt yg akan menentukan siapa kt.. mmg Allah telah menulis suratan kehidupan kt dkt luh mahfuz tp Allah kurniakan kt akal utk berfikir dan menilai yg mana yg baik dan buruk..

a post from abah's fb wall <3 my physics lecturer..

Ketika Allah SWT menciptakan wanita,

Malaikat datang dan bertanya, "Mengapa begitu lama, Tuhan?"

Tuhan menjawab, "Sudahkah kamu lihat semua detik yang AKU ciptakan untuknya?"

Dua tangan mesti di bersihkan, setidaknya terdiri dari 200 bahagian yang boleh di gerakan & berfungsi baik agar dapat mengolah berbagai jenis makanan.

Mampu memberikan kenyamanan bagi anak-anaknya.

Mempunyai pelukan yang menyembuhkan rasa sakit hati & kesengsaraan.

Dan semuanya cukup di lakukan dengan kedua tangan ini.

Malaikat menjawab, "Hanya dengan dua tangan ini?"

"Tetapi, Engkau membuatnya begitu halus & lembut."

"Ya, AKU membuatnya begitu lembut, tapi kamu belum dapat bayangkan kekuatan yang AKU berikan kepadanya agar ia dapat mengatasi banyak hal luar biasa."

"Apakah dia mampu berfikir?" Tanya Malaikat

Tuhan menjawab, "Tidak hanya berfikir, dia juga mampu berunding dan mengutarakan pendapatnya."

Malaikat itu menyentuh dadanya, "Tuhan, Engkau buat ciptaan ini kelihatan lemah & rapuh, seolah banyak sekali beban untuknya."

"Itu bukan kerapuhan, itu air mata. AKU berikan padanya supaya dia boleh mengekspresikan kegembiraan, kegalauan, cinta, kesepian, penderitaan, dan rasa bangga."

"Engkau memikirkan segala sesuatunya, wanita ciptaan-Mu ini sungguh menakjubkan."

"Ya. Harus!!! Wanita ini mempunyai kekuatan untuk mempersona lelaki.

Dia dapat mengatasi beban hidup, mampu menyimpan kebahagiaan dan pendapatnya sendiri.

Mampu tersenyum bahkan ketika hatinya menjerit.

Mampu tertawa saat hatinya menangis.

Dia boleh berkorban demi orang yang di kasihinya.

Dia boleh melawan ketidakadilan.

Dia bersorak disaat melihat temannya bahagia.

Hatinya terluka saat melihat kesedihan.

Dia tahu sebuah ciuman & pelukan dapat menyembuhkan luka.

"CINTANYA TANPA SYARAT."

Malaikat sangat kagum, "Lalu apa kekurangannya?"

Tuhan menjawab, "Hanya satu. Dia terkadang lupa betapa berharganya dia."

Assalamualaikum (:
Tahun 2012 hampir melabuhkan tirainya.. mungkin kt kena check balik dari tahun lepas adakah kt berubah semakin menghampiri kebaikan? ataupun kt semakin dkt dgn lembah dosa...  bukannya apa.. kadang2 muhasabah diri ni mampu membantu kt naik satu anak tangga ke hadapan..

kadang-kadang kt igt perangai kt ni perfect! tip top! aurat dah tutup bagi kt sudah memadai.. akhlaknya? Allah saja yg tau.. Pernah tak dgr Nabi Muhammad S.A.W. diturunkan utk melengkapkan akhlak? bukan senang nak melakukan perubahan lebih-lebih lagi ke arah kebaikan.. contohnya sifat yg mesti ada dlm seorang perempuan is lemah lembut.. drpd seorang yg kasar nak berubah menjadi yg lemah lembut tu sungguh susah.. bukan dlm sehari dua mungkin memakan masa berbulan mungkin jugak sampai bertahun..

Lumrah manusia suka mengkritik.. suka komen tentang hasil org lain.. suka bercerita perihal org lain.. haaa ckp psl gossip ni.. berita hangat dkt palam bila semua sdg sibuk berceghiter tentang si white sofea.. bagiku dia hanyalah seorang manusia biasa yg mungkin Allah belum lagi memberikan hidayah.. mungkin juga ibu bapanya tidak sempat memberikan didikan agama yg kukuh menyebabkan dia berubah sebegitu.. bukan perihal white sofea yg ingin diperkatakan tapi org2 yg sibuk bercerita di belakang white sofea ini.. dalam mereka mengutuk perbuatan dan tingkah laku si white sofea akan tetapi tanpa mereka perasan mereka telah memakan bangkai saudaranya sendiri. bukan perli yg dia perlukan tapi seorang yg mampu menasihati dia bahawa Allah itu sayangkan dirinya.. Walau besar mana dosa yg kt lakukan igt kemaafan Allah itu luas tiada berpenghujung seluas langit hingga bumi.. TAPI dosa sesama manusia mestilah diselesaikan sesama manusia..

dlm pada kutukan yg dilempar dkt white sofea tidak mereka sedari yg siapa yg lebih cetek akalnya.. adakah white sofea yg mmg jelas kurang didikan agama atau mereka yg telah lama dididik dan disemat ilmu agama sejak kecil? penat meleraikan apa yg mereka katakan.. tapi diorg ckp jugak.. at least ive done my part..

sikap pentingkan diri! haaa.. lumrah manusia jugak dalam apa2 situasi mereka hanya ingin berada dlm kesenangan.. tak suka pada kesusahan hidup.. adakalanya kt sanggup biarkan org menderita kerana tanggungjawab yg sepatutnya kt pikul.. learn to be independent by trying to solve your own problems.. tak perlu nak mengheret org itu sama.. what goes around comes around...

#Mak slalu ckp hidup dkt atas bumi Allah ni kt jgn pernah sombong.. Allah itu Maha Adil.. perbuatan baik dibalas baik.. Allah takkan berikan ujian yg tidak dpt ditanggung hamba-hambanya.. Put trust in Allah and believe that the day oj justice will come one day we dont need to predict nor count the number of day to the judgement day.. (:

Auratku bukan tatapanmu wahai ajnabi

Situasi 1
wanita yg katanya menutup aurat sedangkan berpakaian tapi telanjang :( pakai lengan pendek, cutting org tgk perghh!!! terliur bhaai! tudungnya labuh tapi atas dada hahah acano tu? :O eh jap2! nampak jambul sikit lah terkeluar.. eh jap nape dia pakai tudung tp jarang :3 ehh woots2!!! tgk kaki dia comel je!  wowowowowo! pakai skinny!! 

Situasi 2
Subhanallah cantiknya dia! tudungnya labuh! stongan stokin pun pakai! bajunya longgar! sejuk mata memandang sejuk lagi perut ibu mengandung! Satu hari, si polan ni nak kluar rmh buang sampah! Kebetulan jirannya merupakan pak ustz sdg balik naik motor! ngeeng ngeeng! kelihatan dari pandangan pak ustz... seorang wanita yg menyarungkan cardigan dlm erti kata lain ketat lah~ stokin stongan semua dah hilang~ keesokan harinya pulak~ kedengaran jeritan ROTIIIIII! masa bhai roti tu lalu~ kelihatan seorang wanita berkemban kluar nak beli roti *facepalm* mana pergi wanita yg bertudung labuh tu? hmmmm 

Situasi 3
Seorang perempuan yg mmg ternyata menjaga auratnya! tidak kisahlah dgn siapa pun dia bersama... dan tak kisahlah di mana jua dia berada.. sbb tujuan dia menutup aurat lillah (: sbb perintah Allah dia menutup aurat dan bila melakukan sesuatu kerja lillah kerana Allah Taala pasti apa yg terdetik hanyalah aku dengar dan aku patuh.. bukannya mempersoalkan kenapa Allah meletakkan garis panduan sebegini semua.. 

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Sebenarnya menutup aurat tu WAJIB hihihi tu semua pun tau.. tapi pelik org slalu ckp pakai tudung ni panas.. mana tak peliknya yg tak pakai tudung tu kalau panas kipas guna tgn.. yg pakai tudung ktorg kipas guna tudung HAHAHAAH mestilah ktorang lagi sejuk.. bila hujan usually kt jalan like a boss je HIHIHIH sbb bila dah bertudung hijab itu sendiri yg melindungi kt :D pakai tudung dgn menutup aurat sgt beza rasanya! Menutup aurat rasanya Allah je yang tahu.. Its a gift seriously.. try once... mmg nmpk mcm ustzh sikit laah tp who care what people say! Allah knows us better! mula2 paksa diri utk try pakai drpd terpaksa tu lah awk dpt rasa perbezaannya :D

sebenarnya diri dlm dilema~ HAHAHA mana tak nya.. berhijab tapi bila dgn saudara mara tudung ke mana rambut ke mana :( jadi smlm le coussy dtg *a guy of coz* sebenarnya dah lama timbul isu ni.. mcm mana nak cover dgn diorg.. hati berbelah bahagi~ ye lah~ dari kecik pun mmg kalau dgn diorg kt tak pakai tudung... jadi mesti awkward aik! alih2 je.. knp lak? lagi2 kalau balik jb.. mcm mana nak pakai tudung? kalau tmpt tido pun sepupu lalu lalang nak guna bilik air.. hmmmmm... hati suruh pakai tudung mcm biasa dkt luar tapiiii hati yg sebelah lagi ckp ehh! nnt diorg ckp awk tebiat acano? pusing kepala fikir mana tak nya dah lama jugak pendamkan benda ni... tapi last2 smlm nekad let come the high water or wateva laah~ biarlah org nak ckp apa~ pakai tudung skali dgn jubah (Y) hahahahaha.. knp jubah? sbb jubah ni tak yah gosok! sarung je.. kalau pakai cardigan kurang selesa sbb ketat ibarat berpakaian tp telanjang.. memang mula diperli tp makan je laah~ biar je buat lek je hihihihi.. janji Allah tahu apa yg tersirat dlm hati :D tp lagi satu bab salam ni! aiseh! dari dulu mmg dididik salam dgn org yg lagi tua termasuk sepupu *facepalm lagi* hahahah.. May Allah make it easier for me! really hoping that everyone would understand what im going through~ it my aurat! im responsible to take care of it! aurat tetap sama walau dgn siapa pun kt bersama.. maksudnya kalau dgn sepupu sepapat pun auratnya tetap sama takkan terkurang sikit pun... bukan nak berlagak alim tapi mmg perintah Allah yg suruh buat mcm tu.. Do pray for me! its not easy! :D

Palestin darah syahid terus mengalir~

Hatiku berdegup kencang! lub dub lub dub! nadiku semakin laju.. semakin rapat diriku dgn boarder Israel.. Ya Allah semoga perjalananku berjalan lancar getus hati kecilku.. Melihat pengawal2 Israel memegang senapang seperti permainan bagi mereka membuat hatiku bertambah lebih gelisah.. Sesudah melepasi Imigresen hatiku hanya mampu mengucapkan rasa bersyukur kerana tiada komplikasi.. Dlm perjalanan ke Makan Ibrahim, tour guide itu mampu menyemarakkan semangat kami untuk sentiasa dtg mengunjungi tanah yg penuh keberkatan itu..Yang menambah lagi semangatnya apabila dia menggunakan ayat Quran apabila berkata2.. Katanya kedatangan saudara Islam sebenarnya membuatkan mereka rasa mereka masih mendapat tempat di hati saudara2 Islam lain di seluruh dunia.. Selesai melawat Makam Nabi Ibrahim, kami meneruskan perjalanan melewati bandar Jericho.. Getus hati kecilku... sebenarnya bumi ini ibarat tiada peperangan.. Ketenangan yang pertama kali dpt kurasakan.. Tapi knp semua kedai yang Tour Guide tu bawak ibarat ada udang di sebalik batu? knp holy land? bukankah satu-satunya Holy Land ialah Makkah al Mukarramah? knp baju yang dijual tertulis I <3 Israel? knp handicraft terdpt tanda salib? knp terdpt tanda salib di atas kubah masjid? Namun aku hanya berdiam diri.. Kenapa pulak ustz kamal ibarat kurang berpuas hati dgn tour guide tu? hmmmm.. ikut schedule kami sepatutnya melawat Masjidil Aqsa hari yg sama tp tour guide tu terus membawa kami ke hotel katanya cuaca tidak menentu.. Hari kedua pula beria-ria tour guide tu nak membawa kami ke Bethlehem tempat Nabi Isa dilahirkan.. Tp Alhamdulillah ketegasan Ustz Kamal mengingatkan kami objektif ke bumi anbiya itu ialah melawat Masjidil Aqsa. Pelik pulak.. Knp sirah yg dia ceritakan tu salah? Semasa kami di sana, tour guide itu telah meninggalkan kami.. Tertny2 pulak knp dia tidak turut serta solat Zohor di sana? Bukan ke bnyk keberkatan solat di masjid tu?  Satu demi satu persoalan timbul.. tapi kenapa dia berbuat sedemikian?

NI DOME OF THE ROCK! NOT AQSA mohon jgn salah faham.. Takut bila Israel merobohkan Masjid Aqsa yg sebenarnya kt umat Islam tak dpt membezakan 

Bukan saya sengaja ingin membangkitkan memori saya ketika berada di bumi Palestin itu.. Tapi apa yang cuba saya sampaikan sebenarnya mengapa Palestin masih terperangkap dan dibelenggu penjajah.. Sebenarnya jawapannya masih ada di tgn saudara-saudara Islam.. Allah takkan menolong hambaNya yang tidak ingin melakukan perubahan terhadap dirinya sendiri.. Begitu juga hal ini.. Selagi umat Islam tidak bersatu selagi itu lah Palestine tidak akan dpt memerdekakan negara mereka..  berbalik kpd situasi di atas sebenarnya apa yang ingin saya katakan.. Mcm mana rakyat Palestin dpt merdeka sekiranya masih ada parasit dlm kalangan mereka? Takkan org Palestin sanggup menjual barang I <3 Israel yg telah membunuh kaum keluarga mereka? Allah pasti akan membantu Islam sekiranya kita semua bersatu! ustz kamal ada ckp, agama lain takkan pernah bersatu! tapi dlm menentang Islam mereka akan bersatu! Itu merupakan janji Allah.. Bagaimana nak bersatu kalau saf dkt surau pun berlubang? Solat jumaat pun ada boleh terbahagi 2 mengikut parti? 

Pernah tak dgr kisah Umar Al Khattab check saf guna pedang? knp Umar strict sgt sedangkan check saf je pun.. CHECK SAF JE PUN??? di situlah kekurangannya.. dlm saf solat kt di hadapan Allah semuanya sama.. Allah tak tgk awk ni parti mana, kaya ke miskin, cantik ke hodoh.. Saf solat inilah yang menentukan perpaduan umat Islam.. sbb tu lahh kt ni kalau solat bahu ke bahu.. tak kisahlah awk ni jawatan tinggi mana pun bila di hadapan Allah kt semua sama.. Jadi rapatkan saf salah satu cara utk menyatukan Islam.. and ada jugak yg ckp bila kt mampu solat Subuh seramai kt solat Jumaat saat tu Israel akan hancur.. ni kt nak bangun subuh pun 5 minit lagi~  lagi 5 minit~ arghh katil ni dun wanna let me go~ mcm mana lak tu? hmmm :( lagi satu boycott! mungkin pada pandangan mata kt boycott brg2 Israel ni tak dpt bantu pun.. kalau tak dpt membantu @ least jgn menyumbang! dont be selfish! just because makanan diorg sedap kt tak boycott! igt dkt syurga nnt makan lah sepuas-puasnya! Masa Imam Muda dari Gaza dtg Uitm dia ckp dia sgt terkejut bila tgk sticker McD dkt kereta saudara Islam sendiri.. Dia ckp makan mknn yg support Israel ibarat mkn daging saudara Islam kt di Palestine...sepanjang jalan dkt jericho tu mmg bnyk advertisement coca-cola.. Sungguh makanan dan minuman mereka tu diorg sendiri tak makan! diorg bagi dkt org islam mcm salah satu strategi nak hancurkan umat Islam sendiri.. last but not least.. kt tak dpt bantu sekurang-kurangnya doakan mereka~ thats our weapon! doa! :D 

Thats it for now~ lets help our brothers and sisters in Gaza! :D Never lose hope on the power of dua! 

Doa As-Syahid Sayyid

“Muhaimin, jika aku jatuh cinta, jagalah cintaku padanya agar tidak melebihi cintaku pada-Mu.

Ya Allah, jika aku jatuh hati, izinkanlah aku menyentuh hati seseorang yang hatinya tertaut pada-Mu, agar aku tidak terjatuh dalam jurang cinta jemu.

Ya Rabbi, jika aku jatuh hati, jagalah hatiku padanya agar tidak berpaling dari hati-Mu.

Ya Rabbal Izzat, jika aku rindu, rindukanlah aku pada seseorang yang merindui syahid di jalan-Mu.

Ya Allah, jika aku rindu, jagalah rinduku padanya agar tidak lalai aku merindukan surga-Mu.

Ya Allah, jika aku menikmati cinta kekasih-Mu, janganlah kenikmatan itu melebihi kenikmatan indahnya bermunajat di sepertiga malam terakhirmu.

Ya Allah, jika aku jatuh hati pada kekasih-Mu, jangan biarkan aku tertatih dan terjatuh dalam perjalanan panjang menyeru manusia kepada-Mu.

Ya Allah, jika Kau halalkan aku merindui kekasih-Mu, jangan biarkan aku melampaui batas sehingga melupakan aku pada cinta hakiki dan rindu abadi hanya kepada-Mu.

Ya Allah Engkau mengetahui bahwa hati-hati ini telah berhimpun dalam cinta pada-Mu, telah berjumpa pada taat pada-Mu, telah bersatu dalam dakwahpada-MU, telah berpadu dalam membela syariat-Mu. 

Kukuhkanlah Ya Allah, ikatannya. Kekalkanlah cintanya. Tunjukilah jalan-jalannya. Penuhilah hati-hati ini dengan Nur-Mu yang tiada pernah pudar. Lapangkanlah dada-dada kami dengan limpahan keimanan kepada-Mu dan keindahan bertawakal di jalan-Mu.”

MAUT (:

setiap yang hidup pasti akan meninggalkan dunia yang fana ini.mati merupakan sesuatu yang pasti.. bila tiba waktunya, malaikat maut, tidak akan terawal mahupun terlambat barang sesaat pun... Nyawa kita diambil bergantung kpd amalan kt di dunia ni.. Malaikat yg memang ditugaskan utk mengambil nyawa kt akan menjenguk kt 5 kali sehari.. setiap kali solat fardhu. semakin dkt seseorang dgn kematian semakin kerap malaikat dtg menjenguk, setelah 5 kali sehari, semakin dkt kt dgn ajal kt, malaikat maut akan menjenguk kt setiap jam.. dan apabila malaikat menjenguk kt 70 kali sehari maksudnya ajal kt dlm masa 24 jam..

Di ambang kewafatan Saidatina Khadijah, Nabi Muhammad memberitahu yg nyawanya akan diambil. Saidatina Khadijah menangis, sebab itulah masa yang telah lama ditunggu-tunggu.. Nabi Muhammad memberitahu malaikat cabutlah nyawa Siti Khadijah dgn cara yg paling lembut. Malaikat menjawab kalau diberi pilihan takkan dirinya sanggup mencabut nyawa seorang yang semulia Siti Khadijah.. Siti Khadijah wafat dalam keadaan tersenyum.. Pasti Allah telah tunjukkan nikmat akhirat kpdnya (:

Dlm drama, filem lebih-lebih lagi cerita melayu, director lebih gemar watak-watak itu pada akhir kehidupan mereka bersama org yang tercinta. Namun, pada hakikatnya, di akhir hayat kita akan dipaparkan segala amalan kt di dunia. pada masa itu lah kt gentar dan takut. kita juga dpt dilihat dosa org2 di bawah tanggungannya :(

Malaikat hanyalah perantaraan bagi menarik nyawa manusia. Sebenarnya Allah yang menarik nyawa kita melalui malaikat.. setelah semua kehidupan di dunia tidak lagi bernyawa.. tinggal lah malaikat maut. malaikat maut akan mencabut nyawanya sendiri.. Apabila malaikat maut itu mencabut nyawanya, ia menjerit kesakitan dan dikahabarkan jeritannya itu sekiranya didengari oleh manusia yg hidup nescaya manusia tersebut terus meninggal dunia. apabila malaikat maut telah meninggal dunia, maka tinggal lah maut itu sahaja.. dan pada masa itu Allah jelmakan maut itu dalam bentuk kambing lalu disembelih. kerana menyembelih itu merupakan satu-satunya cara yg paling mulia untuk menamatkan riwayat hidup.  Maka apabila maut itu telah disembelih ternyata tiada lagi maut di dalam kehidupan lalu Allah membangkitkan manusia yang akan menjalani kehidupan yang kekal abadi (:

cerita ni tidak saya reka cipta.. saya hanya ingin berkongsi  ilmu (: maaflaah bnyk kekurangan dlm penulisan saya :( Thanks ustz kamal for the awesome story! May Allah bless you insyaallah ameen! dear readers may you get benefit from what i write (: i dont lie. its a true story...

A3.. one word could describe you guys are AWESOME! you guys rocks! thanks for the awesome memories! Alhamdulillah im so blessed to have you guys as my classmates..

our class with mentor miss laily

throughout my journey here, you guys just make me happy! thank you! we went through a lot ups and downs together.. we went through the stress moments and happiness together.. alhamdulillah, Allah just make it easier for us.. its end of sem1, insyaallah i will continue my journey here really hoping to do so.. Raja, hahah my bestie in palam..  thanks jeje for everything.. thanks for supporting me, giving advice, through thick and thin.. im so blessed to have a friend like you.. our R-R single bond shouldnt end here in foundation hihi.. Raihan thanks for everything too :) thanks for your advice! Insyaallah if we have free time lets go to broga's hill! :D ran always give me support.. she wouldnt stop supporting me from behind.. she knows what to say every single time.. thank ya! thats like triple R bond hahah! mely!!! you like to hurt me laah! hahahah! but thats ur way i know! hahahaha! i know u love me! hihihihi lolie~ and yaya! sabahan friend of mine! she taught me how to layan lagu jiwang andai ku dapat intan permata ku pilih senyumanmu~ hihihi

remember when we are too stressed up for finals and we went for bowling? yes! that was an awesome time! setia city mall is like the only place for the palamians to lepak huhu! i somehow fall for the typo stall cool stuff! perfect place to find a present for bestie! huhu but still dont get any of it for ama and nano:( 

remember echa's bday? we went to mcd? hahah

it was a hard and long day~ we end up in mcd, petronas, loitering in front uitm.. waiting for the bus to come! hahah! mcd is like ours! lolie~ 

and yes! again! our class is camerawhore! hahahah.. yeah! my class is always addicted to camera! dont know why.. but it is still awesome!